11-2, and not 11 and 2, or november 2nd, 11-2.
Eleven-Two.
Eleven 2 Two.
Is there a greater embarrassment?
I guess 12-2.
I've never felt like i was accomplishing less in my entire life.
True, i love it down here, during the week.
Then, we have to go play teams that toy with us.
To go on the ice, and dominate.
And then sit on the bench, and continuously watch us get scored on.
Now. I'm not blaming my team for 11-2.
That's just unfair.
But it just seems like its been like this all year.
One time, just one time, how sweet it would taste to win a game against a good team.
It would switch the taste of dry coffee in my mouth to cotton candy.
Just one time.
One time.
All weekend, I just thought of OU.
Thought about how they had a home football game, which i think they lost because they're terrible, to akron.
Ohio football is as disgraceful to college football as the Grand Rapids Jr. Owls are to the CSHL.
But i would be attending a great school, hopefully playing hockey, and living the college life.
I've never actually wanted to fast forward time.
Sometimes i have by like a few days, or hours.
But never months.
God.
Fast forward me to April.
Please.
So i can see where i end up.
And go home.
And work.
And work out.
And see my family.
And friends.
And just live.
Leave all this behind.
But until then.
I guess i have to just sweat it out.
Make the best of it.
Somehow.
Maybe it wasn't our coach.
Maybe we'll know later.
I hope.
It can't get any worse.
I hope.
Maybe something will happen.
And this will get turned around.
Maybe.
I think my jersey needs to get a bit heavier.
If you catch my drift.
Maybe someone will see it.
I already do it.
Might as well give me the extra weight.
It won't slow me down.
Rather rule in hell then serve in heaven, right?
If only i could fast forward time.
But i cant.
Cant wait to go home.
And not think about this at all.
Going to be great.
One time.
One time.
1 comment:
Shane-
I am so sad to hear that things are not going as well as you hoped they would. You know the old adage what doesn't kill us makes us stronger? Kind of an extreme statement but I kind of believe it. I've had experiences in my life where I was as disappointed and discouraged as you are right now. And for every single one of them when I looked back later I realized that I was meant to learn something from it. To grow in some way. Are you going through this to become more patient? To learn about perseverance? I don't know what you will learn from this -- and you probably don't either. But I promise you will look back on it some day and see that this was all part of the journey. And getting to OU will be that much sweeter. Hang in there. Love you.
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